Dreaming of you

If I could stop dreaming about him maybe I wouldn't be so head over heels. It's the dreams that make me feel like he's mine and we'll be together no matter what. Please please want me like I want you. Never have I wanted anything so bad. 

Stereotypical 9/11 post

Here's the deal, I am not such a big fan when everyone posts things about 9/11 because so much of it feels forced and staged. I don't know anyone that was there or anyone close to me who was harmed in the tragedy. I am well aware that it hurt everyone as Americans we don't want to believe we are vulnerable and can make mistakes, but we did. I was in third grade in Mrs. Marie's class and they sent us home with a purple sheet of paper for our parents to deal with telling us everything that happened. When I got home I asked my mom if something bad had happened and she said yes then showed me the footage of New York City on our computer and I didn't know how to process anything. I was 9 years old. I have been around many tragedies in my life and I can feel for the men, women and children who lost loved ones on this day twelve years ago, but I have this understanding as a member of the church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, this life is not all there is and those who fought valiantly will be rewarded in Heaven for their deeds. I ache for those suffering this day. I'm going to go to the temple and be around those who share in my understanding. My cousin is a fireman and I know if we lost him our lives would be severely hurt, so my heart goes out to those families remembering their loss today. My theory on missing a loved one you've lost is time doesn't heal the wound, it just makes you forget more frequently. Every year on Casey's birthday I feel everything all over again. It doesn't go away and I understand that so I am sorry to those suffering, may peace be on your souls.

The Scatter Sunshine Movement

My bishops wife spoke in sacrament meeting today and invited us all the join in this thing she's been challenging herself to do this past year and that is to scatter sunshine. I went up to talk with her after sacrament meeting and told her how much I enjoyed her remarks and want to join in this scatter sunshine movement and she said to me, "Sabrina you are the scatter sunshine movement in this ward" it made my day and helped me to know how much she really loves me and grateful that people are aware of me and my efforts to make others feel at home and welcome in the ward. This is my home and even though most others aren't in my position I'm grateful that I can relate to everyone here on some level. My life is blessed and I have a Heavenly Father that loves me and is cognizant of my struggles and strengths. I love this gospel and want to invite everyone to come unto Christ. I can be a missionary in many ways from right here in Provo, UT without the formal mission call in my hand, we've all been invited to be member missionaries and I am focusing my efforts on that from here on out.