Day 149: Crazy.

This is a man who has always been there for me even though we haven't lived in the same state for years he has chosen to keep me a part of his life. We have gone long periods without talking and phases where we talked multiple times a day. He's the reason we got unlimited mobile to mobile because I could use up the family minutes in one week with all the talking we've done and will do again. I'm so proud of you, Crazy! He's serving a mission for the church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints in Knoxville Tennessee and loving it! It's been 5 months and there's 19 more where that came from. When you say it that way it doesn't feel so enormous. I miss you and our gossip and all the wonderful jokes and times we've spent together. Some people are meant to be friends, we are some of those people :) 

Day 148: Vote Provo

Provo is trying to win the best city to live in vote from a magazine and I think we can do it! Get on to VoteProvo.com and make my dream come true! Do it! Do it! 

This really wonderful man is leaving my life in one weeks time and he held me while I cried about it tonight. I can't seem to get enough of him. I don't know what to do. 

Day 147: A day in the life of a hammock

Back to the grind and the only thing that could make it okay was this woman and these hammocks I anticipate spending a great deal of time in this summer. Who's up for a backyard campout? That needs to happen pronto! 

Day 146: The Sunburn

What I think promises to be a summer of many many sunny days started today with memorials and a float down the Boise river with my wonderful father (pictured below) we are amateurs at this harsh Idaho sun so there was no sun screen in our little adventure and I can scarcely turn without sending shooting pains all around. It won't last forever though and then it'll turn into a tan. Woo! Except I really need to shave. And there is no shaving a fresh sunburn unless you want agony for days. Tomorrow should be fun! I wish I didn't have to go back to work and I could just play at my parents all the time :) I cried for the first hour on my way home. Over the fact that I was leaving them, the fact they don't live in my home any longer, the fact that it isn't my home any longer, the fact that Thomas is leaving and I feel as though he's lost already, the fact that Devon is so very far away, the fact that I don't know how he feels about me, the fact that he writes me things like, "I talked about you for hours",  the fact that I had to drive myself for 6 hours, the fact that sunburn is so sad, the fact that I got to see Christie soon, the fact that I didn't see Christopher this time around because he's serving in Tennessee! The fact that I always panic when I head home because I feel like I'm doing little to nothing with my life. 

What if I wait for him and he doesn't want me? Wouldn't be the first time. But he's not Todd, it'll be fine. 

Day 145: The Birthday

This beautiful talented woman is the reason I'm alive and can function properly. She is graceful and elegant and poised. She never raises her voice to me. She loves with all her heart and takes care of everyone. Her physical limitations are nothing to be scoffed at, but she overcomes them daily. She is my hero. 

We all nap the same :) 

Remember the reason for the struggle. 

Emee is so cute and just loves my family, the boys let her pet their hair for a good long while tonight and the large portion of time we spent with their family was lovely. Oh what a beautiful day! 

Day 145: Preparing for a birthday!

We drove all over the place searching for everything that would make moms birthday a happy one :) these boys have a constant struggle over who can sit in which seat and this is the result. Oh what a beautiful day! 

This is my reaction when my roommate sends me a photo of a letter I've been waiting three months for :)!!!! I get to read it Monday night :) 

Day 144: Idaho. Coulson. Family. Driving.

Sometimes we all drive to Logan to see our dear friends and realize that nothing had changed. They are the same, the friendships are still there and we can talk and laugh just like old times even though time and distance aren't on our side. The drive to Idaho was a lovely one and Adam and I had such a fun time :) 

Day 143: Food truck round up

We've determined that the food truck round up in downtown Provo is just a very ghetto and outdoor food court. That didn't stop us from trying it out though. This lady is a fabulous friend to me and helps when I feel as though I have too many things to do and not enough time in which to do them. Wearing our dollar store sunglasses and doing something new is how we thrive. I love Chistie :) 

Day 142:

He's a little fabulous in this picture. And pretty much the whole time we were talking on the stoop. What a lovely day :) complete with a hug and an "I love you" from a wonderful Thomas man. Oh I love him. I am going to be a mess in two weeks. 

Day 141: catching up on these days

Watching a movie when suddenly, Golden! Haha found out he's not ticklish. These days with these people keep me sane. 

Day 140:

I adore spending my days with Christie :) watching this game called sushi tag was hilarious. I didn't have a great day, but it's not a bad life. It's a lovely life with friends and Doritos and mountains. 

Day 139: Hello, Handsome ;)

Only sometimes do we vandalize things :) 

I love Christie and the fun we have together! 

Day 138: Fire. The things we lost

Mary. Bonfire. Provo canyon. Saturday night. Love love love! 

Christies new camp chair. James. Marshmallows. Strangers. Alexis flirting. Him flirting back! Saturday night :) 

Day 137: plays and blasts from the past

The first picture is of my adorable and talented roommate acting in a play the second picture is of a man I haven't seen in many years acting in the same play who it was so refreshing to catch up with. Life is beatiful and Christie loves me and Provos liquor store closes at 7:00 on Friday nights 

Day 136: Sisters

I love this woman so much I drove to downtown SLC to eat dinner with her for her birthday! 

Day 135: I miss you and you're still here

What do you do when someone who understands you so completely has to leave your life? You try to hold on and when that doesn't work you cry, cry a lot. 

Day 134: Do you ever?

Do you ever see the moment where you made the mistake and wish you could go back to 30 seconds before that and change where it was going? Do you ever dream of a life you shouldn't want and can't have? Do you ever miss someone so much and they haven't even left yet? Do you ever jam out in the car? Do you ever do something even though you know it isn't helping you? Do you ever wish there was time to say all the things you wanted to say? Do you ever take your hair out right before bed and it looks perfect? Do you ever wait for letters that never come? Do you ever forget to take your meds? Do you ever get tired of "do you Evers"? 

Day 133: All of me loves all of you

This just makes me happy! From the way you can tell the boy on the tire swing is smiling because honestly how could you not smile while on a tire swing? To the bridge to the way the sun is casting shadows through the fence and the sun is setting in the distance and the fact that there is a white picket fence for it to shine through. The green grass and the beautiful big tree the swing is hanging from. This life and all the small moments in it are wonderful :) there can be so much joy found in something as simple as taking a moment to be a kid and enjoy the small things. I am grateful for this eye opening experience. 

I still haven't gotten a letter from that missionary in Fiji, but I think of him often so that must mean something is there, right? 

All the things about this day weren't great, but most of the day was wonderful. And that is what I choose to focus on in this life. 

Day 132: Why do I always forget pictures on Sundays?

I don't actually forget, I just don't try as hard as I should. I spent some time with a lot of wonderful people today and didn't take pictures of any. Taking Christie and her family to the airport, spending breakfast time with my roommates and Charles, Golden and I being shoved in the back of Pebbles' car, the last time I'll be in ward council in this ward (I was released today), church with that lovely Thomas fellow :), dinner with Kenzie and Alexis, movie with them and Derek. So many people, so very blessed :) happy Mother's Day! 

Day 131: Star Wars and swimming suits

A talented genius made sure the world saw a bit of happiness today, thank you kind soul :) also, I bought a swimming suit and I'm so ready for pool days! Taking drives with Thomas are lovely and I'm not looking forward to seeing what my life is like without him. It'll be a struggle, but one I knew was coming all along. 

Day 130: someday I'll not be weary

After working 8 hours then cuddling on the couch for many more I decided what I really needed was to drive up and down University Avenue at 12:30 in the morning. I have never been more tired yet so unable to sleep in my life. On a brighter note, I have seen Christie and Thomas nearly every day this week! 

Day 129: Overdoing it

These are my friends. The first person I met in Provo and my dearest friend I've had in this world. I love tees two so dearly and tonight Christie and I had to say goodbye to Jon Hardy because he is off to seek more adventure and friendship. This is what happens when you live in a college town I suppose. We had one final dinner at the 70's house and danced and laughed and chatted and had a grand ole time of it all. Some people stay with you forever in your heart. Jon Hardy will always hold a corner of mine. 

Day 128: Rainy days buoy me up mentally

My cute little house and garage. The Y. That beautiful bush. The fog. The rain. I loved this moment of clarity. Even though the fatigue got to me, I'm grateful to have been blessed with wonderful friends and rain on this day of days. Here's to more rain tomorrow! 

Day 127: Tuesdays are driving days

There's a sweet little park in the middle of Provo that looks forlorn. I hope someone goes to visit it as it's walls peel off. 

Day 126: cinco-ing the something

Nothing like summer nights and Christmas lights and all the glorious fun you can have with a little space. New friends and Thomas and a late night conversation that led to much laughter and giggling 

Day 125: facial expressions.

This man makes the facial expressions for how I feel all the time. In this group of photos he just got looking more and more concerned and I have no clue what he's looking at so disapprovingly, but it makes for a funny photo. Church was wonderful with a family history lesson by someone who has more passion about family history than I do about anything, ever. It was awe inspiring. Followed by a lovely Alexis lesson in relief society. Then a sweet fireside by m. Russell Ballard who blew me away talking about social media and the perils of this world among other things. All the be ended with this fellow dropping by then kidnapping me to have a nice long chat. I am going to miss him next month! 

Day 124: game night remnant

So many people in our house. So much fun to be had. So much Christie. So much afternoon nap. So much fatigue. So much decorating the backyard.  

This.

You make me happy whether you know it or not, I am so happy that's what I've said from the start. Now I am happy knowing you are the one that I want for the rest of my life. You're all of my life. 

Thanks to those silly song lyrics that sprang up in my brain as soon as I saw this email from the man I've been waiting to hear from for months. I miss him so much! Thank goodness he heads back to civilization and computers every so often. Devon, you're wonderful! I hope you're having fun! Write back soon! 

Day 123: Rooftop concerts and free things

I loved this day! I spent 8 hours straight with my favorite person and ate delicious things and had such fun and won free things, mostly we got free t-shirts then she won airline tickets so no big deal :) oh I loved every moment of this day! My coworker is going out to Alaska tomorrow and I wish she were taking me with her. By the way "The National Parks" are my new favorite band! They were at the concert tonight and I thoroughly enjoyed them :) oh I loved this day! 

Day 122: It is true. It is real and I believe in it.

The church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is the kingdom of God on earth. This book is the most perfect knowledge of the truth of Jesus Christ and I read from it daily to remind myself why I'm here and where I'm going. I love the people who sacrificed to put it together and bring it forth so I could enjoy reading it in my room in my basement in Provo, UT. It really is a marvelous work and a wonder. 

 

Day 121: consider the Lillie's of the field

These bursts of color have made my day brighter more than once already this spring term. I had a lovely chat with my Christie friend, went to institute with that Thomas fellow, and did a few errands before calling it a night. My body is so fatigued and I would really love to get a handle on it so I stop going around all bummed that I haven't worked out. I'm going to bed early tonight so I will be able to be at work at a timely hour tomorrow. Oh I love going to American fork only once a week! I should really get up and get ready for work. Oof, it's Thursday, nearly weekend time!