Hi blogging world

Okay okay, I know it's been a little while since you've heard my lovely dulcet tones on the internet, but guess what?! I gave up my photo project. It turns out I didn't care anymore. Also I stopped going to the gym about three weeks ago and started eating treats again so I feel pretty rotten these days. I miss Devon like crazy, woo! No surprise there. But then I remember that six months is none too long at all! It will fly by and in no time I'll be back in his arms and happy as a lark. I'm happy now, to be sure. I'm just a little lonely because I've been out of town for days and days and I haven't gotten a single text from anyone other than linnea. I am lonely. Jen will be here in two weeks and we'll paint the town red! Thomas will be here a week and a half after that and I can hardly wait to hug that goon! The holidays are so happy for me this year :) 

I'm not okay

I'm just not. I don't know how to fix it. 

Missionary emails

How much is too much? How long should it be? Can I say "I miss you"? Will you tell me you love me? Will we discuss your homecoming? Are countdowns inappropriate? Can I come visit you when you return? Can I tell you about the giant whole in my heart you occupy by being absent? Will you let me tell you my fears? Can I tell you the gory details of my family? Do you really want to know about my dating life? Can I tell you I don't go on dates because I'm waiting for you? Can I tell you I want to be your one and only? Can I say I dream of you every night? What will make you stop responding? because I need to avoid that at all costs. Is there another girl out there worrying about all this too? How do I remain calm when you get home? Will you call me right away? What if I'm not what you're looking for? What if you're not what I'm looking for? What if your family hates me? What if my flaws are too pronounced for you? How close to your homecoming can we start talking about it? Do you think of me on Mondays? Can I tell you I think of you every day? How fast can seven months go by? 

I miss you, Devon. You have stolen my heart.