What a difference 4 months makes

Today some of our very dear friends got married and I was uninvited. I’m unreasonably sad about it and I understand that they were wanting to keep numbers down due to the virus, but I wanted to be there. I haven’t missed anyone’s wedding in our little group and I’m so so sad. I was vacuuming the living room tonight and thought about being petty and uninviting his new wife to our next gathering. It was a fun thought for a second, but I don’t really want to do that. I just wanted to be with people I love on a day that was so so important to them. Thank heavens for Tommys wedding in a couple months. He would never uninvite me. I’m family. 

Also, the last time I posted was right at the beginning of the pandemic, now it’s appearing as though it’s never going away so that’s fun. I mean, someday we’ll look back on this time and how uniquely bizarre it is, but definitely not with fondness. No one can win and it’s exhausting. I’ve been trying to dramatically cut back from social media and focus my efforts on my pen pals since they are fun and bring me joy, but no one can win. You have an opinion? You want to stand for something you think is totally reasonable? Get ready to get crushed by the angry masses. There is just so much anger. And all the things people look forward to for months (July 4th in Provo for me) are getting canceled, the Alaska state fair, the freedom festival, schools, life? 

Some days we do okay, some days we don’t. I’m hormonal and today I don’t.