Day 17. What is the thing you most wish you were good at?
I wish I was good at buying clothes, accessorizing and wearing fancy things. So I guess I wish I was better at being a girl. I am so content to wear my ratty old jeans and a hoodie I got from my roommate with my silly purple vans that sometimes I wish I could wear earrings without them getting in the way or not irritating my ears. I wish I was good at matching shoes/clothes/dresses/jewelry and all that jazz. I know I'm sounding pathetic, but I just don't care enough to throw all the money at it to make my wardrobe better. Every once in awhile I wish I could hire someone to shop for me because I hate it so so much. It is such a blow to my self esteem each time and reminds me how broke I am. I hope I get some clothes or shoes for my birthday that's coming up very quickly because I just know that I won't buy those things for myself. Some days I think I can be really good at it, and I wear a headband or do my hair just so, but by the end of the day I'm so sick of it being that way. It's silly for sure. I give up.
Thursday, November 8, 2012
I accomplish things sometimes.
Day 16: What are your 5 greatest accomplishments?
I don't quite know how to categorize them into 5 sections, or even that I have 5 greatest accomplishments, but here goes..
1. Graduation from High School. I was one of those that couldn't wait to get out and get a start on my life. I had a mostly full time job all through my Junior and Senior years and I loved nearly every second of it. By the time Senior year rolled around I was quite ready to get out of the ridiculous things that happened in my high school. Being around the swearing, sex and underage drinking took it's toll on me. I didn't exactly spend my days with the most wholesome people. So it was interesting to get out of there finally.
2. Finishing my young womens personal progress. I love love love my medallion and I wear it from time to time to remind myself of how much work and effort I put into it. I remember when I had my special event where we celebrated my completion I cried because of all the journals I had filled with love and exciting things.
3. My first job that wasn't being employed by my father. I loved working at Lucas Chiropractic and I think the friendships I made there will stick with me for the rest of my life.
4. My first adult job, On-call secretary for Intermountain Healthcare in Utah Valley. I work with so many wonderful people and generally feel very accomplished with myself when I return home from a long day at work.
5. Moving out of my parents house. I lived in that structure my entire life. I was even born within it's walls. I lived there my whole life until June 28th 2011. That is the day my dad and Joe took me and my mother to the Anchorage to put us on a place California bound for my first out of Alaska vacation in 3 years. It was only a little over a week prior to that when Joe asked me to be his wife and I turned him down, then decided this trip was something I wouldn't be returning from. I moved into my grandparents house a few weeks later after my mother and I had completed our vacation through the west side of the United States and lived there quite happily for some time while I healed from all of the changes my life had taken on.
I don't quite know how to categorize them into 5 sections, or even that I have 5 greatest accomplishments, but here goes..
1. Graduation from High School. I was one of those that couldn't wait to get out and get a start on my life. I had a mostly full time job all through my Junior and Senior years and I loved nearly every second of it. By the time Senior year rolled around I was quite ready to get out of the ridiculous things that happened in my high school. Being around the swearing, sex and underage drinking took it's toll on me. I didn't exactly spend my days with the most wholesome people. So it was interesting to get out of there finally.
2. Finishing my young womens personal progress. I love love love my medallion and I wear it from time to time to remind myself of how much work and effort I put into it. I remember when I had my special event where we celebrated my completion I cried because of all the journals I had filled with love and exciting things.
3. My first job that wasn't being employed by my father. I loved working at Lucas Chiropractic and I think the friendships I made there will stick with me for the rest of my life.
4. My first adult job, On-call secretary for Intermountain Healthcare in Utah Valley. I work with so many wonderful people and generally feel very accomplished with myself when I return home from a long day at work.
5. Moving out of my parents house. I lived in that structure my entire life. I was even born within it's walls. I lived there my whole life until June 28th 2011. That is the day my dad and Joe took me and my mother to the Anchorage to put us on a place California bound for my first out of Alaska vacation in 3 years. It was only a little over a week prior to that when Joe asked me to be his wife and I turned him down, then decided this trip was something I wouldn't be returning from. I moved into my grandparents house a few weeks later after my mother and I had completed our vacation through the west side of the United States and lived there quite happily for some time while I healed from all of the changes my life had taken on.
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
NO thank you.
Day 15: If you were an animal, what would you be and why?
I don't like animals. Mostly at all. I like Nikki my parents chitzu (or however you spell it) and she's adorable and cuddly and sweet and soft. But she's wonderful and not slimy and doesn't shed and doesn't stink most of the time. I just don't like messes or slime or slithery things or to take care of pets, I feel as though it's an unnecessary expense and at this time where I feel as though I have absolutely no money, it is unfathomable to me.
So conclusion, I don't want to be an animal, I like being human.
PS. I got asked on a date tonight :) Saturday's Divine Comedy show is sounding so so great to me :) Taylor with the eyes asked me to be his date. So now I'm really excited because the last date I was asked on was in March.. hooray :) I'm being a dumb girl, but I'm so excited!
I don't like animals. Mostly at all. I like Nikki my parents chitzu (or however you spell it) and she's adorable and cuddly and sweet and soft. But she's wonderful and not slimy and doesn't shed and doesn't stink most of the time. I just don't like messes or slime or slithery things or to take care of pets, I feel as though it's an unnecessary expense and at this time where I feel as though I have absolutely no money, it is unfathomable to me.
So conclusion, I don't want to be an animal, I like being human.
PS. I got asked on a date tonight :) Saturday's Divine Comedy show is sounding so so great to me :) Taylor with the eyes asked me to be his date. So now I'm really excited because the last date I was asked on was in March.. hooray :) I'm being a dumb girl, but I'm so excited!
Sunday, November 4, 2012
Give me strength
Day 14: What are 5 Strengths that you have?
1. I was told today that I was, "the light of the ward" and "who isn't friends with Sabrina?" As in I am friends with everybody. I think one of my strengths is that I have the ability to make friends. I remember names and get to know all of the lovely things about people I come in contact with.
2. I'm really great at building puzzles
3. I love love love to write hand written letters and I think I'm good at coming up with things to say without being over the top or petty and ridiculous.
4. I'm good at washing dishes, which is a good thing because it drives me nuts to have dishes in the sink.
5. I think I'm a good driver with the right amount of aggression.
1. I was told today that I was, "the light of the ward" and "who isn't friends with Sabrina?" As in I am friends with everybody. I think one of my strengths is that I have the ability to make friends. I remember names and get to know all of the lovely things about people I come in contact with.
2. I'm really great at building puzzles
3. I love love love to write hand written letters and I think I'm good at coming up with things to say without being over the top or petty and ridiculous.
4. I'm good at washing dishes, which is a good thing because it drives me nuts to have dishes in the sink.
5. I think I'm a good driver with the right amount of aggression.
Weaknesses are for squares.
Day 13: Describe 5 weaknesses you have
1. I see the good in everybody. I fall for people and things without much thought and therefore open myself up to an entire world of hurt.
2. I'm bad at taking the bathroom trash out. haha I know it's ridiculous, but I'm just really bad at it.
3. Folding laundry. I hate clean laundry, I just never really take care of it most of the time and it aggravates me, but I don't like to fold it.
4. Sometimes I get upset if I don't get my way. I just really look forward to the day when I can have my own home and run my own place. I love my roommates, but we're all just here temporarily till we move on with whatever comes next in our lives.
5. I am extremely snarky. I was joking with Alice and told her that wasn't a weakness, that was a strength. I do think being witty is a strength, but I know I go one step farther than that with my snarkiness most of the time. I'll work on it.
1. I see the good in everybody. I fall for people and things without much thought and therefore open myself up to an entire world of hurt.
2. I'm bad at taking the bathroom trash out. haha I know it's ridiculous, but I'm just really bad at it.
3. Folding laundry. I hate clean laundry, I just never really take care of it most of the time and it aggravates me, but I don't like to fold it.
4. Sometimes I get upset if I don't get my way. I just really look forward to the day when I can have my own home and run my own place. I love my roommates, but we're all just here temporarily till we move on with whatever comes next in our lives.
5. I am extremely snarky. I was joking with Alice and told her that wasn't a weakness, that was a strength. I do think being witty is a strength, but I know I go one step farther than that with my snarkiness most of the time. I'll work on it.
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
That just seems serendiptous
Turns out, the uninvited, Not that scary. I jumped the most when she pushed open a closet and it made a big noise. Which was mostly due to the fact that everyone had built up this movie so much in my head and I was stressing out, then I calmed right down and it wasn't scary much after that. Apparently I have a higher tolerance for scary movies than I had originally thought. Good thing it's Halloween time and I have an excuse to watch them.
Anyway, moving on.
I spent the day making fajitas and frosting and eating sugar cookie dough. I forgot just how delicious it was until Christie made it. She made mummies and pumpkins. they turned out so so cute!
I feel selfish having so much family so close and not wanting to spend any time with any of them for thanksgiving. It's that time of year when everybody talks about Thanksgiving and their plans and all that jazz and makes sure that your home teachees and visit teachees have a place to go. I don't know if I want to stay in Provo and fend for myself or do I want to go spend the day with family? I should find out if the offices are open on Black Friday because if they aren't then I just might head up to Logan and spend the whole weekend there. Aunt Jeanne has got to be a fun person to spend black friday with :) But if I have the potential to work that day I want to take advantage of that. I feel silly being this way, but I need the hours so so badly. Oh the conflict of being an on-call secretary. Maybe I will just take the day and get out of Provo for a bit. I wanted to for conference, but it didn't work out. So we'll see if it turns out this time. I'll call them first thing tomorrow. I think I just made up my mind.
Anyway, moving on.
I spent the day making fajitas and frosting and eating sugar cookie dough. I forgot just how delicious it was until Christie made it. She made mummies and pumpkins. they turned out so so cute!
I feel selfish having so much family so close and not wanting to spend any time with any of them for thanksgiving. It's that time of year when everybody talks about Thanksgiving and their plans and all that jazz and makes sure that your home teachees and visit teachees have a place to go. I don't know if I want to stay in Provo and fend for myself or do I want to go spend the day with family? I should find out if the offices are open on Black Friday because if they aren't then I just might head up to Logan and spend the whole weekend there. Aunt Jeanne has got to be a fun person to spend black friday with :) But if I have the potential to work that day I want to take advantage of that. I feel silly being this way, but I need the hours so so badly. Oh the conflict of being an on-call secretary. Maybe I will just take the day and get out of Provo for a bit. I wanted to for conference, but it didn't work out. So we'll see if it turns out this time. I'll call them first thing tomorrow. I think I just made up my mind.
Friday, October 26, 2012
Girl, look at that body
I spent the other night making out with a boy who probably isn't going to be living in my state in two months, then I spent the rest of the week dreaming about a man who is far far away in Jerusalem. What is my deal? Why am I so crazy about a man who I haven't seen in over two months and who clearly doesn't feel the same? I dream of running into his arms when he comes home and never letting go. I want to be the woman he dances with in the kitchen in 25 years and beyond. I want him to be the man who spends weekends in my garage fixing and fiddling with things. I want to sit next to him in church each sunday with our unruly bunch of children laughing and enjoying the family we've created and love we share. Oh to actually be in love like I've thought of in my dreams. Anyway, cleaning checks are tomorrow and tonight Devon and Kyle are coming over to watch the uninvited! ahh! Stay tuned for terrifying posts to come : )
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