What I think promises to be a summer of many many sunny days started today with memorials and a float down the Boise river with my wonderful father (pictured below) we are amateurs at this harsh Idaho sun so there was no sun screen in our little adventure and I can scarcely turn without sending shooting pains all around. It won't last forever though and then it'll turn into a tan. Woo! Except I really need to shave. And there is no shaving a fresh sunburn unless you want agony for days. Tomorrow should be fun! I wish I didn't have to go back to work and I could just play at my parents all the time :) I cried for the first hour on my way home. Over the fact that I was leaving them, the fact they don't live in my home any longer, the fact that it isn't my home any longer, the fact that Thomas is leaving and I feel as though he's lost already, the fact that Devon is so very far away, the fact that I don't know how he feels about me, the fact that he writes me things like, "I talked about you for hours", the fact that I had to drive myself for 6 hours, the fact that sunburn is so sad, the fact that I got to see Christie soon, the fact that I didn't see Christopher this time around because he's serving in Tennessee! The fact that I always panic when I head home because I feel like I'm doing little to nothing with my life.
What if I wait for him and he doesn't want me? Wouldn't be the first time. But he's not Todd, it'll be fine.
No comments:
Post a Comment