"You're the best girlfriend I've ever had"

When he first said it I thought it was hilarious, and the more I've thought about it the funnier it gets. I'm the only girlfriend you've had, my friend. He came to get me for church this morning and I take so much comfort in being by his side. Adrienne said something today along the lines of "I know you haven't been together very long, but your souls are compatible" and I just thought it was so sweet. It has been 12 days since we made it "official" only 12 days and already I am so at ease with him, we're are getting more comfortable around each other. He knows all my deep dark secrets. We have things planned and time set aside for each other. The holidays are upon us and I think it'll be marvelous. Don't talk to me about being without each other for over two weeks yet though. No. 

He is helpful and sweet and thoughtful and goofy and caring and spunky and nerdy and understanding and empathetic and strong and playful and just an all around wonderful man. And he's my very own :) 

Imagine

Imagine if you will a busy Saturday afternoon, you've already done your workout early that morning, the meals for tomorrow are planned and prepped. The laundry is on its third cycle. The dishwasher has just started. There are a few things left needing to be tucked away strewn across the counter. You're bustling about the kitchen when you make eye contact with your boyfriend who is working away on his homework. Small smiles pass between you and his eyes linger on you for a bit longer than necessary. Your smile gets a little goofier as you ask "what?" To which his reply is "I just want to hug you." He stands, you hug and as you're standing there you can't help but think that this is it. This is the simplicity you've craved all your life. He sits back down, you go back to bustling about the kitchen except now you've both got silly little grins tugging at the corners of your mouths. 

Life is beautiful, my friends. 

Loving someone means loving all of them

No, I really don't think it does. But it sure makes the things you don't love about them easier to handle. I don't know where that came from, I love everything about Connor. His laugh is so full of joy, he's kind, he's funny, he loves humorous things, he is a good person, he is gentle, he is understanding, he is realistic, he is very sure, he makes he smile, he introduced me to his sister, his friends love him dearly, he speaks highly of his mom, he's intelligent, he is a techie, he recognizes that we are different people, he likes to talk, he likes to tell me things he finds fascinating. 

In short, I'm one lucky girl :) 

We waste our moments

"Sometime I think that we waste our words and we waste our moments. And we don't take the time to say the things that are in our hearts when we have the chance." -One Tree Hill I've been thinking a lot about this because I have a lot of things in my heart and I don't want to waste my moments. How do you know when you're with the person you want to be with forever? How can you possibly be sure that you're still going to love them in two days? two weeks? two years? two decades? two eternities? How do you have that kind of faith? Do you have to talk yourself into it? How do you hold on to that love and infatuation and giddiness that are present in the early days? How do I get better at this? I have a fantastic boyfriend, our relationship is healthy and fun and I just want to be with him when I'm not. It's also only been a week. I want to figure out how to give myself credit and lose my pessimistic attitude when it comes to lasting relationships. I'm crazy about him, I want to hold on to that. Here's hoping! And praying and fighting and working.

The one where I'm really grateful too late at night

I want to name these likes friends episodes. Brief summary of the past 5 days! Wednesday! Connor wrote me the sweetest card, it was my birthday, I went out to celebrate with Coco and Ari at Res Robin as per tradition. Thursday! Some other stuff happened. I worked a lot. Friday! I got off work early, came home and laid down for about half an hour before jumping in on the party preparation. 7:00 rolls around and all the people start showing up for the party! Party for like three and a half hours with nearly everyone that I love filtering through. Also most of them meeting Connor which was happy to me. Also we held hands for the first time(!!!!) I felt so so loved and cared for by all of the people in my life. I am a quality time person and it was nice to spend time with so many of the wonderful people that I know. Shoutout to Arika and John for being the fantastic married couple that was there :) I love you guys! After Bryan&Courtneu left(I love them!) Connor and I had the place to ourself to unwind and talk and snuggle and get to know each other better. Everything that I know about him, I like. He stayed pretty late with the promise of coming back the next day which leads us to Saturday! He kissed me! He kissed me!! He soooo likes me :) 

There's an episode of Gilmore Girls where she makes a joke like that so I hope you read it in Lorelais voice. We went for a walk, we were huddled together, we were discussing kissing and he went for it. We came back and watched Avatar and snuggled some more. He's pretty snuggly and I love it a lot. Sunday! I sat next to him all three hours of church! We talked and laughed and sang and made jokes and looked at each other and I am so happy! Then we went to choir practice and there is a comfortable space next to him that I fill and I don't know how it became so comfortable so fast, but I like being by his side. He came over for dinner and a bunch more of the boys in our ward came too, that was a blast. They all get along really well so the banter was quick and funny and nice and we were all roaring laughing through the whole evening! We took our merry party to a pie party hosted by our soon to be roommate, Eve. And the fun continued till ward prayer that was simple and spiritual and fun! 

Then he kissed me again :) and we're going to learn the parts for "Baby it's cold outside" because we're sooo cute. 

I stopped being mad and got awesome

Connor asked me to be his girlfriend. CONNOR ASKED ME TO BE HIS GIRLFRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I might be a little excited about that. A little. SO here's the story, he wanted to come study at my house last night which I was all for because then I got to write Linnea a letter and make good headway on my book. I could get used to that. ANYWAY all my roommates were milling around the kitchen and talking and laughing while Connor and I were on the couch and he looked at me for a minute then started writing on his scratch paper "are we a thing now?" then I wrote back "Do you want to be?" he said "I do." and I said "me too" then he wrote a smiley face and we sat there grinning like fools for a few minutes. or ya know, the rest of the time he was at my house :) We got all snuggly and I got really sleepy so he went home, but oh my goodness I have a boyfriend. Connor is my boyfriend. This is real life. This is not a drill. And that was the start to my best birthday ever.

Want to know what makes me crazy?

I knew you did. First, my sister is serving a mission, that's wonderful, but holy cow she turned into a brat as soon as she left and it's just getting worse. I know it's hard, it sucks to be away from your family and your super hoebaggy boyfriend, but that being said it does NOT give you a right to be a royal rotten spoiled scoundrel to your family and friends. Or maybe it's just me that she's behaving like this to.. but when you write two paragraphs in an email about how much it sucks not to get mail and berate the one person who has tried to ignore your brattiness and suffer through it and in the entire freaking email you never once mention that it's MY BIRTHDAY IN TWO DAYS. Whatever sis, I don't care. Stop talking to me for awhile. NEXT! Roommates, I'm sorry that this study I told you about conflicts with my birthday party, but truth be told I would rather you weren't at my birthday party anyway. I only want people there that I love and that love me right back, please please please go do the study and don't freaking ask to switch my birthday party day. I'm sorry I'm so inconvenient to your life and that you think I'm boring and that you don't really care about me, but this one day I'm going to be a brat and make sure it's somewhat about me. I will only have one 23rd birthday and it's unfortunate that all the crap with Adam keeps coming back up and it makes me mad that I don't have control over my emotions and I feel robbed already and the day hasn't even started yet. I just want to feel unique and genuinely cared about and I want a lot of really big hugs.