I do almost everything alone and would you like to know why? Because I am a young, single and independent woman. I went to a football game alone last night and bounced around from group to group, I made friends with a security guard, I ran into someone I haven't seen in years and had a nice long chat because I wasn't worried about taking up someone else's time or getting back to my group. I love the freedom that being alone gives me. I went to a conference this morning and among the scads of people looking for multiple seats I only needed one and had one of the better ones in the house because of it, but everyone looked at me like I was out of place or it was odd that I wasn't giggling with gals pals or attempting to attract attention from guys. At church each week I sit alone and enjoy the spirit that resides, but that's wrong because I'm supposed to be socializing and finding a husband... Or that's what my roommates and fellow churchgoers would have me think. I go to the movies alone nearly every time I go to the movies. First off because I don't actually have anyone to go with and secondly because it's such a hassle trying to get someone's schedule to coincide with yours. Especially if it's a movie I'm kind of embarrassed about wanting to see. Thirdly, I don't have to share my popcorn with anyone, ever. You can't beat that. Fourthly, I can be as animated as I want to be and the people I'm next to will never see me again.
I drive places alone, I go to the library alone, I go grocery shopping alone, I eat alone, I work out alone, I watch movies alone, I clean alone, I go to parties alone(hahaha, "I go to parties") my existence is a lone one, and someday it won't be, but for now I am making the most of it!
Also, it really sucks running into people you once loved and can't anymore.
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