Wednesday, February 17, 2016

Are people ever really happy?

Don't get me wrong, this is not about my relationship with Connor. That is going marvelously :) this is about my relationship with everyone else and their relationships with each other. I am getting driven crazy by the person who is supposed to be my best friend right now. I feel like none of my extended family wants to be around me or include me or think about me WHEN THEY ARE IN MY FREAKING CITY. I feel like my friend who is trying to get engaged sometimes forgets why he loves his soon to be Fiancee. I feel like my married friend forgets to love her husband sometimes and it shows in how she talks about him. I feel like my friend going through a divorce has turned into a version of herself that she wouldn't be proud of, not for the fact of divorce, but the way she talks about people in general now, her bitterness, her sadness. I think the old her would just want to give her a hug. Which is what I feel like when I see her. In short, I think it's high time for some baby therapy and a nice long chat or two with Braden and Lauren. I sort of wish Christie wasn't coming. I sort of wish I could talk to her about how I feel. I sort of wish my problems were big enough to be valid or small enough to just go away. I think it's time to go back to my therapist. 

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