Why

It makes no difference how many laps I swim, miles I run, miles I bike, books I read or pounds I lose. When it comes down to it the distraction is what I've needed because I can't face the family that I have now. Christmas sucked for the reason that I want to be around them and be happy and ease into our lives, but Adams defiance, Bobs resentment and anger, my dads hurt feelings and my mothers exhaustion make it so hard to be around them. I never want my mom to know this. It would make her so sad. I don't know how to fix it.