Coping mechanisms

Mine are as follows: Being rude, Being abrupt, being increasingly snarky, over working, keeping myself busy, watching netflix for hours on end so I think about something other than myself, spending time with my roommates. Basically the list is anything that makes it so I don't sit in the dark silence and think about the sadness. Today I'm not doing so well with that. I am still going through this process of having my heart slowly ripped into pieces. You want me to work three extra hours this week? OKAY. You want me to take on two other peoples responsibilities? OKAY. You're saying that all my help up to this point is quitting so I'll get to work much more often alone? OKAY. You are trying to hire others to take their places so I get to work alone AND train? OKAY. You want me to do all this and pretend like I'm not heartbroken? OKAY. You want me to do all this and not shed a tear? Yeah I don't think I can do that part.