If I could stop

If I could stop falling in love with everyone I meet, that would be great. I had a lengthy discussion with my coworker today about how I all too often use the word "love" and it's because I really do love things so freely and so quickly. Unfortunately that happens with people too. In many instances it is a great quality, today it was not. I work with a man who is old and married and treats me like a queen. He's a good man and I see the wonder in his eyes even though he deals with hard things often. He had become my dear friend, but I should not love him because it scares me to get so close with someone who is so far outside the realm of possibility of having a future. How did I get here? What a mess. I'm going to sleep till I forget.